oh mother of christ

" oh mother of christ" - a little sex (bad 80's movie ...and no its not a porno)

...alright!..mai has severe pre-college(bu) anxiety..i was so optimistic up until now..and 3 days before the move-in.. slight freak out..well yeah.. i mean i am superstious to begin with..now its just gone obsessive compuslive..

- if i make the traffic light..it will be a good year
- if the next song i hear i like..it will be a good year ..oh no shakira again
- if i dont have to wait in line..it will be a good year
- if i dont overcook my grilled cheese..it will be a good year ...crap (burnt)
- if i have exact change..it will be a good year
- if i have trouble pumping gas..it will be a bad year
- if i have one more piece of gum left..it will be a good year
....and so on

its ridiculous....i need to relax..not possible.. i did this last year..but wait im transfering..shit ..ugh wil i make friends?..can i handle classes?..can i handle the city? will i keep busy? can i find a major? will i find a job? ..riding team or no riding team..( didnt really like riding team last year..but i love riding and usually competeing ..hmm conflicting)...

oh wait everyone can read this..whatever